Tuesday, April 27, 2010

oh geez

Since nobody bothers to read my blog, I'm going to write somethhing somewhat personal. And if someone does happen to read this, then thanks for caring :)

So... I want to have a baby.

In the worst way I want to have a baby.

Like actually start my family.

But my body got all screwed when I had the depo shot and now I'm not ovulating.
It's a very real, very deep pain that I have from wanting a baby so badly.

Sometimes, late at night after Jed has fallen asleep, I sneak to the couch and cry. And sometimes I cry in Jed's arms. And sometimes when I'm in somewhere I can't outloud, like church or work, I cry deep down inside.

Jed and I are having a wonderful evening and it's a happy, lovey night and so I don't want to tell him and make tonight a sad night, but tonight I hurt for want of a baby.

Oh geez. Can't wait for the miracal to finally happen.

And now I'm going to go watch a movie and have a wonderful, lovey night with my Hubby.

- I love my husband and I do love our life... I'm just excited to add a little one in someday :)

4 comments:

  1. Well Cami Jo just so you know I always read your blog. From now on I am going to comment on every single entry you do just so you know that I LOVE YOU!
    So this is something I can relate too. I don't have the same problem, but I had a miscarriage in December. I know the feeling you have explained. I can't tell you it will all be alright or anything like that but I can tell you this, Heavenly Father loves you and if I have learned one thing it is this. He doesn't give us these challenges to cause us pain but to help us grow. It doesn't make it any easier knowing that but I do know that he loves you very much.
    You are beautiful and someday you will make a fabulous mommy:D I love you and miss you.
    Mary

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  2. Hang in there, I'm sure the Lord is just taking his time picking out the cutest one and making sure he/she will fit into cowboy boots. I love and miss you so much!

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  3. Cami...I read your blog:) I love you. I am sorry! We will lose weight together! If you ever want to talk I'm here. Love ya girl.

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  4. Hey sweetie, you and Jed are gonna have the cutest kids ever, just hang in there and enjoy just you and him to the fullest and when you and your body is ready you'll be able to add to your little family :) By the way I love your blog I'm glad you have one :) If you need help moving let us know ok!

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