Since nobody bothers to read my blog, I'm going to write somethhing somewhat personal. And if someone does happen to read this, then thanks for caring :)
So... I want to have a baby.
In the worst way I want to have a baby.
Like actually start my family.
But my body got all screwed when I had the depo shot and now I'm not ovulating.
It's a very real, very deep pain that I have from wanting a baby so badly.
Sometimes, late at night after Jed has fallen asleep, I sneak to the couch and cry. And sometimes I cry in Jed's arms. And sometimes when I'm in somewhere I can't outloud, like church or work, I cry deep down inside.
Jed and I are having a wonderful evening and it's a happy, lovey night and so I don't want to tell him and make tonight a sad night, but tonight I hurt for want of a baby.
Oh geez. Can't wait for the miracal to finally happen.
And now I'm going to go watch a movie and have a wonderful, lovey night with my Hubby.
- I love my husband and I do love our life... I'm just excited to add a little one in someday :)