We're still not pregnant and it just gets harder and harder to deal with the let down. I know that I'm not the only one going through these kinds of hard times, but it's a personal challenge that is getting harder and harder for me to deal with. I know that the Lord has His own time table and He will bless us when the time is right, but I can't help but think every now and again, why not now? Why not us? And I have such a hard time when teenage kids get pregnant (like my 17 yr old brother-in-law and his 16 yr old girlfriend, I love them and will be there for them, but I'm selfish and this has been very hard for me) or people who aren't married or who aren't following the principles of the church get pregnant... basically anyone who just gets pregnant just because and who aren't making the best decisions and who just don't "get it"... it just break my heart and I just feel sad for myself. I know that's not the right attitude to have, but sometime I just can't help it. I need to be better. Really, I am excited for them to have such a precious blessing. It truly is exciting when a new spirit is brought to earth, and I truly am happy for them. It just gets hard some days.
On a different note, Jed has changed his major from Pre-Vet/Animal Science to Ag. Business. He seems to very happy with the change and the long term advantages. He's not completely shutting door on vet. school, but just taking a change for a semester. I'm secretly thrilled because it means he can be done with school in two years instead of ten, however I will be loving and supportive of whatever career decision he makes. After graduation Jed will have many different job opportunities and I think he's pretty excited about that. We've been extended a potential job offer in Saratoga, Wy working on the Overland Trail Cattle Co. It's approx. 490,000 acres/488 sq miles of ranch. The Platte River runs through 22 miles of it. It's gorgeous. Our good buddy Tyler Hamilton is the Cattle Manager for the ranch our there and he's the one who is trying to get Jed a permanent job there after graduation. I'm pretty excited about it!
Other than that, we're just getting through day by day. We still love each other unconditionally. We're crazy about each other. We're healthy and strong. Our dogs, Little Bear Lacey Lou, our cat Walt, and our fish Mike are great and entertaining. We've got amazing friends, I'm so excited for Gabe and Carlie, who get married Oct. 14th of this year. They are wonderful and great friends and we wish them the best. I feel totally blessed to have Joe and Jency back in Cache Valley, even for a short time, I feel very grateful for their friendship and I'm excited to make some fun memories this fall/winter.I'm especially excited for our girls weekend. I'd like to thank all of you who read this, I love you and appreciate that you care. I couldn't be happier for Ashley and Matt to welcome their baby boy home in just a few short weeks and wish them the very best. I'm excited for my brothers season of football, so far 2-0 and going strong. I'm grateful for my family, both on Jed's side and mine, for their continued love and support. I'm thankful for the Gospel in my life and the peace, hope, and joy is brings to my life. We just got called and sustained to be Webelo cub scout leaders together and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm excited that Fall is here. I love Fall! But mostly I'm eternally grateful for my husband. He is my life, my whole world. I'm so thankful for him, for his love, patience, ability to make me laugh. I could not ask for better.
I Love You, Jed Wayne Pugsley. Always and Forever, I Love You.