Well... dang it

We're still not pregnant and it just gets harder and harder to deal with the let down. I know that I'm not the only one going through these kinds of hard times, but it's a personal challenge that is getting harder and harder for me to deal with. I know that the Lord has His own time table and He will bless us when the time is right, but I can't help but think every now and again, why not now? Why not us? And I have such a hard time when teenage kids get pregnant (like my 17 yr old brother-in-law and his 16 yr old girlfriend, I love them and will be there for them, but I'm selfish and this has been very hard for me) or people who aren't married or who aren't following the principles of the church get pregnant... basically anyone who just gets pregnant just because and who aren't making the best decisions and who just don't "get it"... it just break my heart and I just feel sad for myself. I know that's not the right attitude to have, but sometime I just can't help it. I need to be better. Really, I am excited for them to have such a precious blessing. It truly is exciting when a new spirit is brought to earth, and I truly am happy for them. It just gets hard some days.

On a different note, Jed has changed his major from Pre-Vet/Animal Science to Ag. Business. He seems to very happy with the change and the long term advantages. He's not completely shutting door on vet. school, but just taking a change for a semester. I'm secretly thrilled because it means he can be done with school in two years instead of ten, however I will be loving and supportive of whatever career decision he makes. After graduation Jed will have many different job opportunities and I think he's pretty excited about that. We've been extended a potential job offer in Saratoga, Wy working on the Overland Trail Cattle Co. It's approx. 490,000 acres/488 sq miles of ranch. The Platte River runs through 22 miles of it. It's gorgeous. Our good buddy Tyler Hamilton is the Cattle Manager for the ranch our there and he's the one who is trying to get Jed a permanent job there after graduation. I'm pretty excited about it!

Other than that, we're just getting through day by day. We still love each other unconditionally. We're crazy about each other. We're healthy and strong. Our dogs, Little Bear Lacey Lou, our cat Walt, and our fish Mike are great and entertaining. We've got amazing friends, I'm so excited for Gabe and Carlie, who get married Oct. 14th of this year. They are wonderful and great friends and we wish them the best. I feel totally blessed to have Joe and Jency back in Cache Valley, even for a short time, I feel very grateful for their friendship and I'm excited to make some fun memories this fall/winter.I'm especially excited for our girls weekend. I'd like to thank all of you who read this, I love you and appreciate that you care. I couldn't be happier for Ashley and Matt to welcome their baby boy home in just a few short weeks and wish them the very best. I'm excited for my brothers season of football, so far 2-0 and going strong. I'm grateful for my family, both on Jed's side and mine, for their continued love and support. I'm thankful for the Gospel in my life and the peace, hope, and joy is brings to my life. We just got called and sustained to be Webelo cub scout leaders together and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm excited that Fall is here. I love Fall! But mostly I'm eternally grateful for my husband. He is my life, my whole world. I'm so thankful for him, for his love, patience, ability to make me laugh. I could not ask for better.

I Love You, Jed Wayne Pugsley. Always and Forever, I Love You.

Summer 2010

(our fish "Mike")







Well Hello dear friends! It has sadly been too long! Jed and I had a wonderful summer filled with many wonderful adventures with good friends and family.

This is a crazy blog filled with many pictures of our summer... Enjoy! And sorry, they're all kinda out of order and random, but it makes it fun (This pictures of Hubby is so ADORABLE I j just post it :) )







This is a cool one of a Buffalo we saw in Yellowstone. I shot this with my amazingly cool new Fugifilm Camera Jed bought me in Montana just outside of Yellowstone because he know how much enjoy taking pictures. He really is the best Hubby EVER!!




One of the geysers in Yellowstone.






















A VERY hot pool in Yellowstone.











Haha I LOVE this picture... Gabe, Joe, Chavis and Hubby decided to make fun of the gay guys walking around Yellowstone, but I'm pretty sure they were just showing off for us ladies :)

You can kind of see the deep hole that goes and goes and goes in this pretty pool.... Jed sure thought this pool was neat!

Chavis wearing Carlie's sunglasses at Old Faithful... what a goofball :)

Old Faithful










The fun water at the Continental Divide... we crossed it three times!








Haha, another picture I LOVE! This Cowboys are so funny! And don't worry, they really aren't peeing :)








The whole fun group... Chavis, Jed, Me, Gabe, Carlie, Joe, and Jency. I LOVE these people!









Hubby and I in front of one the geysers (By the way, this was my first time to Yellowstone National Park and Island Park. Thank Hubby and friends for making it one of the greatest trips!.... "Sooarry Boys...." haha :) )




This hot pool was boiling mud and Jed and I came away craving chocolate milk.....

These signs were everywhere and it made me laugh.









So you can't tell from this picture, but the tree on the left has a black bear sleeping under it... if you squint really really hard you can kinda see the top of its head... see.... right there... We saw three bears and unfortunately this is one of the better one,but this was taken with my old and broken camera.

The famous Petrified Tree.

So our Island Park/Yellowstone trip was over the July 4th weekend. Thanks again Joe and Jency for letting us be there with you. The boys had WAY too much fun with the fireworks. This is Jed/Hubby having fun with a sparkler.

Kind of a side note picture... Jed made us a table. He propane torched it so the grain got burnt and showed up like this and then polyed it so it has a nice, smooth finish. Next to our pine bed he built us for my wedding present, it's one of my favorite items we own.

This picture looks CRAZY!! But I really am just holding a sparkler.

We left Yellowstone and headed into Jackson Hole, WY and this was our view. Gorgeous, ain't it?!

We went to the Bar J Wrangler that night, again my first time, and I LOVE them! But I love Hubby's kisses more!!

Another gorgeous picture along our travel from Yellowstone in Jackson, the Tetons, the Buffalo, the green green grass.... It doesn't get much better. I call this one, "Beneath these Western Skies."

The group at the Bar J Wranglers.

Jed, Gabe, Carlie I stayed the night in Jackson. I Love waking up in Wyoming with my Love!

Jed trying to look scared of Big Foot... I don't quite see it...

Me trying to look scared, but I couldn't quit laughing.

This is a good sign :)

This is a random picture from our new house in the kichen. Do you like the pink counter tops?

This is our marvelous oven the previous renter found on the side of the road... it works great and looks cool too.

This is Walter, we call him Walt. He is the most adorable, courage,lovable, entertaining cat. We love him!

Well hope that kind of catchesus up. I have some other house pictures and rodeo pictures to post, but, like everything else in life, I'll get to them one day. :)

Still Here...

And needing to BLOG!! So many fun things have happened that I want to share!! I just now need to make time to do so instead of waiting for the time to come to me... I'll be writing soon!!

So much work to do, so good at procastinating...

For instance, I should be packing up the extra room so that we can get it all moved over to the new place tonight but instead decided that the dishes need washing... But they surely didn't need drying because the laundry need swithed, folded... And not put away because the shelves and tv needs to be dusted before we move them on Saturday... And come to think of it, my NEW CAR needs to be vaccumed!!

Haha that's right! Cami FINALLY got an ADORABLE 2006 Nissan Xterra!! I LOVE IT!! It's black. 4X4, clean and wonderful!

And now that I've finally wasted enough time on the blog, I should go pack up that room... Maybe I'll try finding the camera to take some new pictures... Oh and Lacie and Little Bear and being so funny!! I need to find that camera.......

My Summer Goals

Hey ya'll

So Jed and I are are moving into a HOUSE!! We get the keys tonight and can start cleaning and painting and then next week we can start moving everything over to the new place. Its a little old but it it's 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, has a huge living room, a big kitchen, a washroom, and we're putting up a fence for the dogs and fixing the corrals for the horses. I'm SO excited!!

And now that we're in a house, I actually want to be a WIFE and learn wifely duties...
-Cooking: At least twice a day
-Sewing: Because Jed is a busy, harding man and loves to get new rips in his jeans
-Baking: Everyone woman should know how to bake breads and cakes and stuff
-Cleaning: I acutally enjoy this one... but I can be better about washing base boards and whatnot
-Gardening: So I don't have to live off my in-laws for fresh fruits and veggies
-Canning: So we have good winter food as well as food storage
-Food Storage/Emergency Kits: Beause you know never know what's on its way
-Memories: I need to take more pictures of all our adventures so we can remember all of our wonderful moments!

Maybe I'll try working part-time so I actually have time to learn all these marvelous skills haha.

Wish me luck!

--I love my husband and I love our Life!

ps... stay tuned for pictures of our old apartment and our new house!

oh geez

Since nobody bothers to read my blog, I'm going to write somethhing somewhat personal. And if someone does happen to read this, then thanks for caring :)

So... I want to have a baby.

In the worst way I want to have a baby.

Like actually start my family.

But my body got all screwed when I had the depo shot and now I'm not ovulating.
It's a very real, very deep pain that I have from wanting a baby so badly.

Sometimes, late at night after Jed has fallen asleep, I sneak to the couch and cry. And sometimes I cry in Jed's arms. And sometimes when I'm in somewhere I can't outloud, like church or work, I cry deep down inside.

Jed and I are having a wonderful evening and it's a happy, lovey night and so I don't want to tell him and make tonight a sad night, but tonight I hurt for want of a baby.

Oh geez. Can't wait for the miracal to finally happen.

And now I'm going to go watch a movie and have a wonderful, lovey night with my Hubby.

- I love my husband and I do love our life... I'm just excited to add a little one in someday :)

Kickin' into high gear

Alright, I'm done sittin around, feelin bad for myself because of the weight I've gained, because we're having such a hard time getting pegnant and we can't afford to really do a lot about it, because I can't wear my jeans... I'm just done. I'm now a member of the local Anytime Fitness. I'm keeping an online foood journal that's connected to my workout plan which is all connected to the gym. I'm going to loose weight, tone up, and actually feel good about myself. I'm going to feel worth while again. But I am not going to post "before" and "after" pictures. No one should have to see that except my husband and I. But hopefully I'll post about how I'm doing and how I'm feeling overall. I'm excited to get started and see how far I go. Wish me luck. I'l need it :)