oh geez

Since nobody bothers to read my blog, I'm going to write somethhing somewhat personal. And if someone does happen to read this, then thanks for caring :)

So... I want to have a baby.

In the worst way I want to have a baby.

Like actually start my family.

But my body got all screwed when I had the depo shot and now I'm not ovulating.
It's a very real, very deep pain that I have from wanting a baby so badly.

Sometimes, late at night after Jed has fallen asleep, I sneak to the couch and cry. And sometimes I cry in Jed's arms. And sometimes when I'm in somewhere I can't outloud, like church or work, I cry deep down inside.

Jed and I are having a wonderful evening and it's a happy, lovey night and so I don't want to tell him and make tonight a sad night, but tonight I hurt for want of a baby.

Oh geez. Can't wait for the miracal to finally happen.

And now I'm going to go watch a movie and have a wonderful, lovey night with my Hubby.

- I love my husband and I do love our life... I'm just excited to add a little one in someday :)

Kickin' into high gear

Alright, I'm done sittin around, feelin bad for myself because of the weight I've gained, because we're having such a hard time getting pegnant and we can't afford to really do a lot about it, because I can't wear my jeans... I'm just done. I'm now a member of the local Anytime Fitness. I'm keeping an online foood journal that's connected to my workout plan which is all connected to the gym. I'm going to loose weight, tone up, and actually feel good about myself. I'm going to feel worth while again. But I am not going to post "before" and "after" pictures. No one should have to see that except my husband and I. But hopefully I'll post about how I'm doing and how I'm feeling overall. I'm excited to get started and see how far I go. Wish me luck. I'l need it :)

I FINALLY colored my hair :S

So I've gone from very blond to very dark. Well, the darkest I've been. What do you think?

Our Dogs.... aka: Our Non-Human Children

So we love our dogs. The tri-colored Corgi is names Little Bear and
the cowdog mutt is names Lacie Lou (She's 1/2 Border Collie, 1/4 McNab and 1/4 Catahoula).

They have quite the personalities and they do everything and go everywhere with us..

My Style Blog Makeover Giveaway

If you've never seen "My Style" backgrounds for blog backgrounds you're missing out because there are some thee CUTEST backgrounds!! And now she's giving away TWO Blog Makevers! Check out her to blog to find out how to enter at mystylebackgrounds.blogspot.com. Then let me know what you think! Good luck to all who enter! :)

It was our First Anniversary this past weekend, and it was wonderful! We went snowmobiling which was very sentimental because that's what we did for our honeymoon.
This past year has been a hard, wonderful. amazing journey. We've had a lot of ups and downs, unexpected turns, crazy fun adventures, and I'm so thankful that I have such a wonderful man to share it with.
Words cannot express the gratitute and love I have for my husband. There have been all too many times we could have easily given up and walked away, but we've both learned and grown and our love had deepened beyond all comparision. I love my husband and I'm so excited to share forever together.
I love my husband and I love our life :)

It's time to go away...

So I don't know what my problem, but I truly can't stand staying the same place for a while. While it's changing jobs every year and half, moving every three or four years, or simply going on a getaway trip for a couple of days... but right now I NEED to get out. If I had it my way I'd go to Jackson Hole, one of my favorite places, and go fishing by the lake or snowmobiling or even just a picnic. But I'm stircrazy and need to go out. If only I had the money... one of these days, soon, I'm GOING!!!!!

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